THE DARKNESS

I fear the darkness within

That stands right beside me, on top of me, around me

That lives deep inside my brain

Threatening to floor me with one single flutter of its perilous wings

Oh Dark Companion why do you torture me so?

Just as I taste the sweetness of the light

As I walk in the joy of a clear mind and a joyous heart

You seem to grow louder 

And you will not stop

Until I lay hopelessly…

Debilitated

Depressed

Dejected

Defeated

Am I to live for the rest of my life in the shadow of hope?

Am I to accept your relentless burdensome weight on my soul?

Am I to take comfort that everything in my life will changes but that you will remain constant?

Am I to bottle up my potential for fear of being accused of being inconsistent?

For years I have muddled through an endless forest of questions

My only hope being to one day find a light strong enough to overcome you

But the harder I search, and the further I travel in and out through the pathways of despair

You prevail

I don't know what to do about you

All I know is that I cannot allow you to defeat me

You see, there is a Vision and a Purpose which is greater than you and I

There is so much I am meant to sow into the world 

And you - Darkness - cannot rob the world of what I have to give

And with or without you - I swear to God, as hard as it may be - He will have the final word on this!